Don't be a slave to a list 😜

We all have a list of what we want, or and what we want to get done. Some of us write it down, some just have it in their brain, and some, like me keep it in our phone now. While walking in the morning I think of so much, this is one though I had, that we sometimes get so busy with our list, checking things off, that we don't use our time for other people if we don't put it on the list! 

Do I have to have everything on a list? Is this how I organize my life? Is my life so structured that I have to get it on the list before I do whatever I might want to do?

I think so.

I think in Possibilities as well, and that keeps me planning without doing, as travel has been on hold for what seems like a long time. So this is another list, but a very loose one, one that has no date, no sure plan, just a possibility list. 😀😂

Yep for years I have had a positive possibility list in my mind. This changes with time as I have changed what I want to see and do, and as I age something's get checked off, some thrown out. 

Polly and I have talked much about trips we want to make, and our list is similar, with much we want to see together, and a few things we want just for ourselves. But we still have a list. 

So what is it I'm wanting to think about here? If I put it on my list, and I attach a time to it, then that becomes my driver. I did this, so what if I want to just have a day and go for a walk, of catch a fish, or whatever. Can I just blow the day? 

That's what I'm talking about, am I a slave to a list? 🤔 Hmm, I think I am. It seems I have a program built in my mind that puts all my possible thoughts on a list, till I do them, or throw them off as not important, or needed. 

Is this how we all go through life, slaves to our lists? Hmmm 

No resolve here, just a wonder at how I think. I think I'll take a day today, just LoL, tick a different thing off my list. Funny beings we are, our minds have to organize some way of getting our desires met, or accomplished, or done, or checked ✔️ off the list. 

Funny how I think, how do you think? 🤔

This blog title was put on my list as I walked, as many others have been. If I stayed away from walking would I get a smaller list! 😂😆

Thoughts today will be many, as with all days, the question is, how many will make it to the list 😳😂 lol

Time to go for my walk 😉 it's on the list 😁

Am I loosing my mind? Hmm 🤔

Yesterday was a very good day, with a smear of "ahh shit".  Mother's day, we went to Catherine's place to give her a gift, and that was good, Shayla & Carl were there bringing there old couch and chairs to Cathy for her living room. 

  Catherines Mother's Day gift w Shadow

After Polly and Catherine exchanged gifts, Shayla comes with a gift for us she has had for awhile, she opened the taped cardboard & handed something wrapped in white paper to Polly. Polly opens it and tears, then I look and same. It was a picture of Bosco, Shayla had a friend paint for us. Holly crap, I couldn't look anymore, had to walk away. Emotional I was, so was Polly. 

We both thanked Shayla, a huge hug, and thanks. Then I ask where's Jayden, he didn't make it up for Moms day yet. Where's Jesse? So I go for a walk through the house, check out the new to Catherine furniture, and go to Jesses room, he's on the computer, games are his big thing. We talk, and I tell him Memere is here, he comes out and we visit a bit in the front yard. 

After awhile I look at the picture again, and say to Shayla how much we love it. Thanks again and her and Carl take off to his Mom's place to give her a present. He showed me, 3 Rhododendron plants. Lucky Mom. 

I put the cardboard package of Bosco's picture down on the table outside, and said in my mind, I should put this in the truck, but I didn't. Then in my mind I said don't forget this. 

Off I go to do this and that, then we leave and go to get something from hardware store, Walmart, the liquor store, on the way I remember we left the picture at Catherine's place, and last place I remember seeing it was on the table. 

As we drive up I think I see it, but no, not there. We talk with Catherine and look of the whole house, and yard, twice, and inside the truck 3 or more times. No luck☹️ not happy, I feel just terrible. We say our goodbyes again, and hope it turns up, but all evening no call. I called Shayla, just incase she picked it up. No, and had to tell her. She was good about it, "Mistakes happen" she said. Still I felt like shit.

On to this morning and why I say I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I wake early to the birds again, just love this, sounds are so close as we are very close to the trees where they perch and sing there morning songs. I get up after listening for awhile, and start my day making coffee as always, just today as I'm pouring in the water I get the got to pee message, and almost like I'm going to pee my pants, so I push the button and off I go to the bathroom.

 After my 2nd pee for the morning, I come down to the kitchen and the coffee is coming out to the counter. I forgot the to put the pot into the machine. I wake my head, turn off the coffee pot, clean up and start again. Then a minute later I see coffee again coming onto the counter, I look and the inner basket is sitting on the counter. I forgot to put that in before I put the filter and coffee in. What the heck, I'm loosing my mind I think. 

Some would say just a bad start, and will get better, but this morning after not being able to remember where the photo went, then this I was really feeling like I was loosing it. 

I finish my morning tidy up inside, then go outside and do same with the shop outside, and when I come back in I sit down and look at the phone, and a message from Cathy saying she was here last night, look under the lid of the BBQ. I thought the Message was from another friend, not Cathy, so when I lifted the BBQ lid I didn't know what to expect. But when I saw the cardboard I knew what it was right away.

 

I went inside, Polly was getting up at the time, I told her I was teared up, emotional, was so happy to see this. 

I had decided to write this before I saw this message and got the picture back. 

I feel calmer now having written it down, but have to call Shayla and let her know that it's not lost anymore. 

So I now question how my mind is working, and have to do as I know is best, when I think of doing something, do it now, not wait. Same if I want to get something in town, write it down NOW! Otherwise, I'll forget. 

Am I loosing my mind, I'm not sure, but I did have a blip, and will be keeping my attention and mind on what the heck I'm doing. 

Feeling kind of drained right now, all's good, we have our picture back, and all's good right now. On to our day, paying just a little more attention to what I do. 🤗❤️

 

Possibilities

Polly's handy work 😃

Having used the term possibilities for a long time, I'm learning others do the same. Saying yes more than no, using possibility in my thoughts and speach has helped create opportunity that would not have been without dreaming what could be. 

Is this how inventors create there ideas? I'm not sure, but thinking of what outcome you want, then rolling it around in your mind is one way of creating, but talking with others, and developing the idea 💡 is what's truly fun. 

When I wake early as I most often do, I pay attention to what I'm thinking as I wake. No particular reason, just to see how my thoughts are, where I start my day. Sometimes is something left from the day before, incomplete, sometimes new, and sometimes is something that has bothered me for a long time. Sometimes I just wished I could sleep like Polly 😃😂

Today I started thinking of the bowling that I went to with family at our bowling alley, for our grandson Jesse's 13th birthday. Was fun to watch, and play a game I hadn't played for years, like riding a bike, it all came back to me fast. Just not exactly the same, as when I bowled we were taught to be aware of others in lanes beside you, and wait till was your turn to bowl, uninterrupted by others beside you. 

This was not how this went. But it was fun, was a small amount of people, and masks were worn till we got seated, and people were having fun. 

Just for a moment in time my mind went back to what the world was like before this virus, and the well meaning people have created. I'm not going to yak about it here, just know I'm not all onboard with how the world has changed, just making my way through it like many others.

Now back to possibilities, I had a neighbor stop by as I was cleaning up outside, and we had a good talk about how he has been observing me, doing this, doing that. He said you been making things all over the place. LoL I had a good laugh, and I explained my "Say Yes" attitude, and he wanted to understand that, like did you say no before. I said before I would often have to think about it, maybe yes maybe no. 

When I say yes, that leaves me free to explore, the possibility, and go from there. As we talked he came with a request, and as he was asking, he said, I guess I know the answer already asking me to do something, we had a laugh, and I said "Yes" he wants a box made that is multi use, for tools, and a seat and storage inside and on top. I said, lemme get my tape measure, lol. Not right now, he said, when he had more time, we would come up with a plan.

 Just this conversation was fun. I do like to explore ideas for resolving problems, what I really like is creating beautiful wooden projects that show off the beauty of the wood. 

I like that it is not perfection I'm shooting for, but Beauty of the wood, inside and out. 

       Still thinking about this piece

I still have some wood left, and looking like we may stay put a little longer than I thought. The neighbor offered me some wood, check out what's there, you can use what I have, I have no use for it. 

Being careful, I said, I'll look, but I'm trying to use up what I have. 

And on it goes, every day another project comes my way, by just saying "Yes" and creating the possibility.

Makes for a great feeling. 

We had a fire yesterday, we had wieners and cake. Today we just might have another fire, just for good measure, still some cake left 😂😃

 Our lives are altered right now, doing what we can to make life somewhat normal as we remember it, is how we survive. Soon things will change again, and travel will be our way again. For now it'll have to be cake and possibilities 🎂🤔 

Loving life here at Arrowvale 🤗❤️